Disappointed

no need other to tell
just listen to the heart
and the eyes
enough to know

I know you know I know you know I know.
-YoeL-

Keluguan Hati

Karena telah menjalani hidupnya sepenuh-penuhnya,

rerumputan yang kering gersang 

tetap menarik perhatian orang-orang yang berlalu lalang.

Bunga-bunga sekadar berbunga,

Dan ini mereka lakukan sebaik-baiknya.

Bunga lili putih yang mekar tak terlihat di lembah,

Tak butuh menjelaskan dirinya pada siapa-siapa;

Dia hidup hanya demi keindahan.

Namun kata "hanya" itu tak diterima manusia.

Andai tomat-tomat ingin menjadi melon,

Betapa menggelikannya.

Heran sungguh saya melihat,

Begitu banyak orang ingin menjadi yang bukan diri mereka;

Apa gunanya menjadikan diri sendiri bahan tertawaan?

Tak perlu kita selalu berpura-pura tangguh,

Tak guna membuktikan sepanjang waktu 

bahwa semuanya baik-baik saja,

Usahlah memikirkan apa kata orang,

Menangislah kalau perlu,

Menumpahkan air mata itu baik

(sebab hanya dengan begitu kita akan bisa tersenyum lagi).

-Mitsuo Aida-

Teaching

Yesterday I was in charge on behalf the pastry chef who couldn't come and teach. I gave pastry class briefing for first semester students. Explain to them about grooming, rules and equipments. It was my first time talking in front of 26 students for one hour. In the end of class, I felt so thirsty. Luckily, the class was under my control. Their attitude was good. Finally, I could understand how is the feeling to be a lecture. I think, it's not just need the knowledge, skill or experience. "It's need the strategy also to control the voice while giving lecturing," said Mr. Nonot to me.

Last night, I've got message from another lecturer that she has leave day for today. She asked me to be in charge in her class and teach about the introduction of housekeeping supplies and material. She gave me the choice also if I'm not confidence, just check the students' grooming and check list their attendance. I asked her back, "Is it should be in english? My english is not so good, if I can speak in Bahasa then I'll try to give  them the introduction." Then she replied it's OK in Bahasa. So, this morning I prepared it. Before the class, Mr. Nonot remind me that teaching consist of three parts: opening, content and closing. He gave me the examples how to give opening, how to make two ways interaction with students and how to close the class meeting. I tried to apply his advices in these two days while I taught in the housekeeping class. Thanks a lot Pak Noy! ^_^

Tomorrow, I should give the same briefing of pastry class as like yesterday to another class. Hope I could improve better. 

I won't consider these three days as a burden, but as an opportunity for me to learn and grow up. Try to think positively in every situation that given. 

Happy teaching! =D

"It's not that I'm smarter than them, but I learned and experienced before, so I share it."

-YoeL-

on my FO desk